im tired of talking

im writing this because maybe i dont want to tell tray everything. i dont want to burden him. i want to have happy times too...even if some of those times im only happy because i push some things til later. ive only always told him because he insisted hed rather know, that i wasnt a burden. well, i am a burden, no matter how much he loves me. maybe ill always be a burden. but i dont want to be a burden every moment - for me or for him. so sometimes, i wont tell him. for him. for me. for us. sometimes, it really is just my problem.