do i tell him?

i know he feels bad about the gwen thing. how bad, i dont actually know. like, does he say he feels bad mostly because he has to, or does he actually feel bad? and he said he kind of regrets it.......kind of as in "maybe it would have been better if i didnt" or kind of as in he's really beating himself up about this?

i dont know. he doesnt tell me things.

and i know that he wants to give me an orgasm pretty badly. and i know he feels, at least to some extent, like it's his fault - he said so in so many words. i dont know if its just kind of like a "something i want to accomplish" thing or if it really bothers him that i cant.

does he feel like we're missing out too?

if he answers his email, im going to ask. its going to bug me tonight, so might as well. if he doesnt answer, well, probably wont ask then. at least not yet. no promises after sex tomorrow.