im afraid he's cheating

i just have this shaking feeling about it. i mean, its come and gone since i found out about the whole gwen thing - i mean, who knows if there has been someone else, especially since he was on all those dating websites and even admitted that he felt like he needed a one night stand? im quite certain theres been at least one other.....i just feel like there has to have been. and since he clammed up about whatever message was on his phone friday night, im sure theres something else going on - probably another dating website. which i could be fine with - he needs to see someone else every once and a while, i could deal with that. you know, if he TOLD me. i could deal with an open relationship or with him needing to escape for a while. i just......i dont like this whole secrecy thing. it makes me wonder whats really up. I dont think I think he'd leave me, its just......it feels like he doesnt care enough/ trust me enough to tell me. he doesnt need to tell me every little detail - i just want to know hes got something going on. thats all. otherwise i just wonder, like tonight.....